Why Wanting An ED is Stupid....
Anyone who has never had an eating disorder wouldn't get how unglamorous and painful an eating disorder can be. Maybe you think that you'll be able to lose x amount of weight and start eating normally again... How very wrong you are. You see, once you reach that goal, you will want to reach another and another and another; etc. Maybe you think that by attaining these goals you will have control and have a perfect body, highly doubtful, you wil look in the mirror and hate what you see. Or, perhaps you are one of the lucky ones who will look and see that they have gained nothing and lost nothing, or perhaps you will see a dismorphed image of yourself, isn't that lovely, I thought you would think so. Do you enjoy looking at pictures of models in magazines, well you might as well toss the magazines away, they will make you sick. Why, you ask. Well, fisrt of all they will make you cry, you will deeply desire to be like them. Next, they will no longer be thin enough for you you'll want more. Finally, you'll look at them in despair bcause, after all, they are more perfect than you will ever be. Do you enjoy getting eight hours of sleep, sucks for you, why? Well deary, you will be sitting there in bed one night and oh, where'd that tummy cramp come from? You will spend at least six minutes doubled over your knees rocking back and forth due to the excruciating pain, then you will throw a fit and try hitting your poor tummy, even though all it wants is food. But oh, hitting it just caused you to feel even worse, darn, wait another ten minutes, possibly more, maybe until the next morning until eventually the pain fades. I'm guessing you probably think I am telling you this to scare you, but really, it's the plain sad truth about what you become. Of course, you're probably going to continue trying to lose weight even though you know the consequences. Kudos to you, you're only human. Perhaps you will attain your goal, maybe you'll even die trying. Either way you lose, you'll either be forced into recovery, or worse, die. Maybe recovery is worse than death, I sure think so, maybe you won't.
Don't say you've never been warned,
Maxine ♥
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